I am involved with several online classes and each have goals to do but this week I did some other things that maybe were more pertinent. This has been a tough week for me.
My daughter broke her collar bone, she is in Canada and we are in Ecuador and that felt really bad because of the distance. But I have to tell myself that if we were in Canada distance still would be a factor. Yes, this was painful and difficult for her to go through and also for us, my heart broke and cried right with her. It was soo bad for all of us..... Of course to deal with it as best I could I went into problem solving mode to try and make the journey to recovery less difficult for her but I maybe should have been softer with her and gentled her more but......
Then I found out my Dad was just diagnosed with stomach cancer in the primary stages and both of my grandparents died of that also, and where else in my lineage. So that set me on fire a bit as you can imagine. My dad is well in his 80's and is in amazing health, he is a swimmer and a biker and is very active and eats well, so it came as a bit of a surprise. He has had a health scare though that avalanched. It originally came in the form of a gallbladder problem. The gall bladder caused a prostate problem which blocked the urethra caused a kidney and bladder problem which caused blood chemical problem which caused a heart problem, no kidding, I just hope I am recalling this incident accurately, I may stand corrected on a few details. Eventually the MD's cleared it all up. This is the path that health can take. The present stomach issues may be something else all together or could be related to gall bladder. So my thinking is this, my sister also had had gallbladder issues and my dad soooo.
Gall bladder is the holding station from the liver to stomach for bile. We use bile to help us break down fats, things like to extract the fatty vitamins, like vitamin A,D, and E. If this goes array then a number of things can happen and end result for gall bladder is the removal of it. An option which I am not for but whatever. What is interesting is that gall bladder in Chinese and other medicines is about anger, frustration and also motivation and inspiration and also passion.
So this is the point where my new awareness changed my goals from art oriented to health for this week, I looked at the signs and made a decision. Especially when anger and motivation and inspiration are things that I might be able to influence for the better. Sooooo, My husband and I did a gall bladder cleanse. Look on the internet about that, look up gall bladder cleanse/Epsom salts. It is not really a hard cleanse to do but it has amazing results if you do it exactly as it says to the letter, very important!
What was amazing for me was the results. I expelled huge numbers of green gall bile bits for the entire next day following. Some of the symptoms of gall issues are pain in shoulders usually right side more, low back again right side, migraines etc. take a look for more if you are interested. I am almost pain free right now and I feel different….. calmer and focused, aware…..and I am still assessing for more….
We went for a hike the next day after what seemed like all was calm and passed and I was shocked how fragile and sweaty I was, I needed to rest frequently, I was wayyy weaker, and I was pouring out sweat. This is from a hike that I am very used to. I also was very emotional and weepy all along the hike. My Husband was also having the same reactions. We were chatting and discussing what we were going through and without looking at the Chinese medicine information, had come to the conclusion of problems with motivation and inspiration and feeling defeated were what we were feeling we were going through especially from our past. This then came down to something big and electric, passion for life, for art, for living. Then when we got home we confirmed it on the internet and were kind of shocked to see it confirm what we were going through.
Some would say that this experience was bad thing but I feel so much better now. I feel like I released so much. The cleanse people suggested that this cleanse should be done again every couple of weeks until there are no more gall bits released, so I have to say that this is something that I will commit to. I prefer this to symptoms and surgery. I would like anything related to gall issues release and moving freely. I choose to do whatever is in my power to become a more inspired, motivated and joyful and passionate person. My actions in regards to my health and my art and art business are part of the change, they are interconnected for me.
I thought when the class was done last week that the most important thing to do was something art related and that I would fail by not completing an art task that was public and bold (that was the class assignment) but I have to say that in my case taking care of my body and its physical and emotional symptoms are perhaps a good place to focus while I do those other goals as well. Noticing how my emotional is affecting my physical and also my success and thinking is something I am reminded to embrace. If cleaning my gall bladder will help my motivation and inspiration and passion that is one closet I am very happy to clean out, body mind and soul.
Be informed, responsible and take action for your own health, and if you are lucky and you feel that you have a supportive and informed MD, Naturopath or whom ever, work with them to make these changes.